Early hours

Early hours of the morning and yet again I'm wide awake.
I'm at work tomorrow, and Paul has just gone to bed.
I have no one to talk to again when im upset.
Sat feeling very lonely and annoyed.
I don't like myself when I'm acting this way.
Because I spend a few nights on my own a week, I feel abandoned.
It's stupid.
I think I need to hurry my therapy up.
If it is the only thing that will help me, I need it now.