No words at all

I think I should just give up.  I'm always the one who annoys everyone and I just want to give it all up.
Fed up of trying to do right by everyone.
People I care about dont care about me in the same way. 
They are happy to leave me on my own.
They dont care about how upset I get.
They dont try and help me.
Just leave me alone or be there.
Im ready just to walk out and start a new life.
I'd love to pretend that I dont need anyone to make me happy.
That I am confident and outgoing.
But it won't happen.
I'll keep tagging on behind people, catering to on their every whim, and being forgotten about the only times I ever ask for something.
Thanks life!
Could've dealt me a better hand!

Daily struggle

My days seem like they can't get worse.
I sit crying with uncontrollable fear and anger.
Sometimes I hold out longer just to see if it will all improve.
I know I dont want to be here anymore.
I often consider ways how to dispatch myself,
But I just dont want to hurt my family and friends.
It is at that point where everything is hollow,
I feel nothing.... I dont care about much now.
I try to help people by convincing them I'm ok and I guess im good at it because no one seems concerned.
I like to slice myself open again at the moment.
I wish I didnt but im ashamed to say it helps.
I wonder if people could feel how I do for a day... would they cope.
Because im truely struggling now.
I'm not sure how this will end.