Hello....

I hate that I upset people by being worried
I say silly things and make people angry.
Will someone just talk to me and say I'm not being stupid or crazy.
I just want someone to talk to me as if they care about me and that I matter over all else.
Please someone, just talk to me

Currently...

I don't want to just make it through.
I want to get out and explore.
See more than just the UK. 
I want to be able to work somewhere warm where my degree is useful. 
Rather than get up every morning after no sleep because I'm worrying about my life.
Go to work and dread being bitten. 
Come back and look in an empty cupboard and wonder where the next meal is coming from.

Flare up

My anxiety levels have been low for a while now.
I'm a new person.
Yet the flare ups send me straight back to square one.
Paul is away from me until Monday.
He is flying to Berlin with his dad tomorrow and I'm getting worked up.
I have never been on a plane and they have been the subject of many nightmares over the years.
I'm getting really upset and panicky just waiting for the news that the plane has crashed.
They haven't even set off yet -.-
Why does a worry end up becoming, what I believe to be, the only possible outcome of the situation.
Therapy doesn't help right now.
I don't think anything does.