You make me a proud guardian.
Your strength never refuses to amaze me.
I aspire to be your Fred until the end.
Thursday, 26 June 2014
Dead end?
I have no University to go back to,
I have a part time job thats pays very little,
I have to organise everything as if it's my own burden,
*sigh*
I'd love my artwork to be my life but I really doubt it will take off.
I'm a little stuck right now....
Friday, 6 June 2014
Dealt a good hand
I'm a lucky girl.
I know I overlook this most of the time but I truly am.
I am in a very happy relationship.
I have a lovely family and awesome friends.
I have a friend who is setting sail on the adventure of a new relationship.
She seems so incredibly happy and I'm proud of her for growing into the amazing person that she is.
Being around her lifts my mood and gives me energy!
It inspires me to put in maximum effort in everything I do.
She makes me feel crazy and most of all, myself.
I must admit, the real me often gets locked away when stressed and worried.
I have another friend who's relationship is practically rock bottom.
They are on and off, what seems like every other day now.
He told Paul that he was very lucky that he had found me and that we were so happy.
It's hard being the couple that people aspire to be.
While it's nice to know that we must look truly happy to others,
when things do go wrong, it leaves me feeling stupidly down.
As if we've fallen from some almighty pedestal of the ideal relationship!
Either way, I have been with Paul for 2 and a half years now.
I can say that I have found my future husband....
Although many would cringe at that sentence.
In all honesty, it has been difficult.
We had a small break when things went downhill.
We have had big arguments, you know, those where you just can't stand the sight of each other.
We have been through stressful changes in education, work and living situations.
But we have pulled through.
There's not a night that goes by that I don't think I'm in love with the perfect guy.
That's not perfect as in he doesn't have faults. We all have them.
No, he's perfect for me.
We can have gaming and film marathons together.
We can go out and socialise with each other friends without problems that some couples seem to have.
We can go for long walks and still lose ourselves in adventure.
We can sit silently or in deep conversation.
We can still hug and kiss as passionately as a new couple.
Everything works well together.
I don't think for one second that it will be easy, especially if we get married and start a family.
Yet, if this happens, and I hope it does.
I will be the happiest person on this planet.
My dream in life is to inspire people. Even if it's just the one person.
If Paul wants the same life that I do, I will have inspired him.
From a person who feared throwing himself into a serious relationship and didn't want children...
To a caring, sensitive and romantic partner who would one day be an amazing dad.
There's not much left to say now other than I love you Pauly.
My sun and stars. xxxxx
I know I overlook this most of the time but I truly am.
I am in a very happy relationship.
I have a lovely family and awesome friends.
I have a friend who is setting sail on the adventure of a new relationship.
She seems so incredibly happy and I'm proud of her for growing into the amazing person that she is.
Being around her lifts my mood and gives me energy!
It inspires me to put in maximum effort in everything I do.
She makes me feel crazy and most of all, myself.
I must admit, the real me often gets locked away when stressed and worried.
I have another friend who's relationship is practically rock bottom.
They are on and off, what seems like every other day now.
He told Paul that he was very lucky that he had found me and that we were so happy.
It's hard being the couple that people aspire to be.
While it's nice to know that we must look truly happy to others,
when things do go wrong, it leaves me feeling stupidly down.
As if we've fallen from some almighty pedestal of the ideal relationship!
Either way, I have been with Paul for 2 and a half years now.
I can say that I have found my future husband....
Although many would cringe at that sentence.
In all honesty, it has been difficult.
We had a small break when things went downhill.
We have had big arguments, you know, those where you just can't stand the sight of each other.
We have been through stressful changes in education, work and living situations.
But we have pulled through.
There's not a night that goes by that I don't think I'm in love with the perfect guy.
That's not perfect as in he doesn't have faults. We all have them.
No, he's perfect for me.
We can have gaming and film marathons together.
We can go out and socialise with each other friends without problems that some couples seem to have.
We can go for long walks and still lose ourselves in adventure.
We can sit silently or in deep conversation.
We can still hug and kiss as passionately as a new couple.
Everything works well together.
I don't think for one second that it will be easy, especially if we get married and start a family.
Yet, if this happens, and I hope it does.
I will be the happiest person on this planet.
My dream in life is to inspire people. Even if it's just the one person.
If Paul wants the same life that I do, I will have inspired him.
From a person who feared throwing himself into a serious relationship and didn't want children...
To a caring, sensitive and romantic partner who would one day be an amazing dad.
There's not much left to say now other than I love you Pauly.
My sun and stars. xxxxx
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