Second chances

I think we all deserve second chances.
You wouldn't permit me mine, but I've given you, yours.
It didn't take long for you to realise that I care for you so much and really am a large part of your life.
The text you sent me saying, 'I think I've made a mistake about us," made my heart flutter.
The truth is I wasn't coping without you, and I know it was only a few days but I wasn't sleeping, I wasn't eating, I wasn't living.  I lost a stone in weight over a few days and became really quite ill with the stress.
After speaking to you about it all, I found out you were the same.
I'm glad you finally realised that none of the things I said or did were done to annoy you, but only because I cared.
It'll still be a long road from now until we can say we will be together forever, like we used to, but at least it's a start.
There will still be arguments, and grudges that need to be forgotten.
All I can say is I'm sorry you thought the worst of me, and I, you.
We both love each other and that's all that should matter.
The things we've argued about are nothing in the grand scheme of things, and people have been through so much more and come out stronger.
All the changes that have occurred seem so big in our minds, but they really are minuscule.
We will go through much more and I hope we can still be together at the end.
All I want is for us both to be happy and I know you make me smile so much more than I thought possible.
Please let us make the most of this chance.
Bad things wouldn't happen to us if someone or something, somewhere, didn't think we could handle it.

When the sun rises in the west...

 So here we are at the end.
I'd love to say there was still a chance but I don't think I can put myself through the waiting.
I can't put myself through a few more weeks of hanging on to some type of false hope before you decide if you're ready to carry on or not.
If you decide that you want me back then we can talk, but I'm not running back.
We both made mistakes, neither more than the other, but I feel you treat me like shit the last few weeks.
I love you, I always will but this whole thing is no more.
Goodbye my sun and stars.
xxx